Charley- it is fine. You are certainly welcome to express your feelings. I am glad you did.
The answer to the question about how I feel is that I feel even more sorry today than I did back then when I wrote that. I feel terrible about what transpired between Ed K. and myself, I feel awful about the things that happened with others, too. I wish I could take them back and be friends with everyone again, but life just doesn't work that way, unfortunately. You can't unring a bell. Once something is done, it is done, and cannot be undone. I was too reactive in the way I ran this place out of the gate, and it hurt me, and the forum, and there is nothing I can do to change it but say I am sorry, over and over and over again. I have done what I could to change the way things are now. The site is doing well at what I set out to do as a result of my stepping back.
When my 15 year old son got Cancer a year and a half ago, I really realized how insignificant and stupid these online skirmishes are in the big scheme of things.
Compared to life and death, what happens on an online venue is nothing, really. I have relaxed some at work to, which is to my benefit, by reminding myself that if no one gets sick or hurt or dies, whatever it is that has me upset really doesn't matter very much.
So, yeah, I still feel terrible. I have tried to invite people back, to make amends, and to offer an olive branch. The door is open, and the coffee pot is on. I understand if things are irreparable. Nothing has changed on my end except that I feel worse as time goes by.